I just finished two little old books on prayer. It’s the little old ones you have to watch out for. They inevitably pack a punch – one that breaks through the thick wall of your ribcage and turns your insides upside down. Ok, that was dramatic. But really, it’s those authors that cut to the chase and just speak truth that really get to me. They make me question my life and whether or not I’m actually living for God. And I always walk away with an answer, but not necessarily a change.
This time is different.
Something changed inside me, broke wide open all spilled out, til I had no doubt that something changed. Never would have believed it til I felt it in my own heart, in the deepest part, the healing came. And I can not make it, and I can not fake it, and I can’t afford it, but it’s mine. It’s mine. It’s mine.
Sara Groves : “Something Changed”
I have never before felt so burdened to pray – both for requests or things on my heart, but also by God’s command to do so. He wants us to come before Him and ask, beg, push, and listen. We need to do this in order to maintain relationship with Him.
It’s so easy to categorize prayer as “one of the ways you can connect with God” and just leave it at that. We put it among singing, reading the Bible, and serving. And then we decide what we’re good at, or what “works” best for us, and neglect the things that don’t fall into that “category.” We don’t allow ourselves to believe that prayerlessness is sin! We are so quick to excuse ourselves instead of falling on our faces and admitting that we just don’t want to do something that God has clearly asked of us.
I’m done with that. And I’m taking this seriously. We admire the “saints” who took hours to pray every day, but we are no where near that level of intimacy with God, and rarely aspire to be there. I want to be one of them, and I’m doing something about it.
1 Comment
June 30, 2009 at 2:59 pm
Very cool stuff. So you gotta tell what books you were reading!